The waiting.

I haven't posted yet mostly because posting makes it real. It means I'm accepting the fact that he's going to leave and I'm going to be lonely. When people ask him about it and I'm within earshot, I jokingly say that I don't want to hear about it. That's not necessarily true. I do. Just not yet. Not until it's final. Not until the board has accepted him. And maybe not even until he has a date.